Doin' Just Fine

I was looking for Michael Buble's version of That's All and what I found was Doin' Just Fine by Boyz II Men. Memories of my first major heartbreak flashed back. I remember playing this song almost everyday, silently hoping for the day that I can finally say that I'm doin' just fine without him. It was a relationship that lasted almost 4 years. The love I had for him was something I was trying very hard to ignore for the most part of its existence. I didn't want to believe everything he said and I refused to acknowledge all his efforts, thinking a relationship which had sex as its foundation couldn't be something more [that should give you an idea of our set-up]. He grew tired of trying to win my trust and screwed things up just when I realized I wanted us to be for real. It reached a point that a simple talk would end in an arguement. He even got himself girlfriends-for-display [I heard most were axed after a few weeks/months] and I'd like to think it was to make me see that he's okay. We pushed each other away. I wouldn't go into details 'coz I don't wanna bore you. We're both good actors so college years went by without people really knowing something's goin' on. Some of our friends are still unaware of that secret affair and I don't intend to ever let them know. There had been attempts to make it work but I guess we're not meant to have a normal relationship. We were just another case of "more than friends but less than lovers".. It took more than a year to get over him but I'm happy that we remain friends to this day. There's still occassional exchange of how-are-you's and plans of let's-go-out-sometime.. Last time we talked, he mentioned about a girlfriend but knowing him - I don't think he'd take her seriously with the way he diverted the topic. I wish him the same happiness and contentment that I now have. There are still days that I can't help but wish I could be alone with him but it's more of my missing his company. He had a reputation of being serious and almost scary but I've seen and known the other side of him that he didn't want anybody else to see. He was a bad lover but he was a good friend. Thoughts of him now's not as heart-breaking as it was about 3 years ago. I'm perfectly happy now with the person who reminded me that life doesn't end there.. and I couldn't ask for more..

Doin' Just Fine

by Boyz II Men

There was a time when I thought life was over and out

When you went away from me

My dying heart made it hard to breathe

Would sit in my room

Because I didn't want to have to go out

And see you walking by

One look and I'd break right down and cry

Now you say that you've made a big mistake

Never meant to take your love away

But you can save your tired apologies

'Cause it may seem hard to believe

But

[Chorus: ]

I'm doin' just fine

Getting along very well

Without you in my life

I don't need you in my life

I'm doin' just fine

Time made me stronger

You're no longer on my mind

You were my earth

My number one priority

I gave my love to only you

Anything you'd ask of me I would do

But somewhere down the road

You felt a change in the weather

And told me that you had to journey on

A kiss in the wind and your love was gone

Now you say you never meant to play your games

Girl, don't you know it's far too late

Because you let our love just fall apart

You no longer have a heart

[Chorus ]

When you said goodbye I felt so all alone

There were times at night I couldn't sleep

My heart was much to weak to make it on my own

Baby after all the misery

And pain you put me through

So unfair to me girl You're no longer my world

And I ain't missin' you at all

[Chorus ]

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