Anxiety Attack

It's 03:30am. At 6am I'll have the manager's certification which our company calls TIER/IETR. T for Teach, I for Interact, E for Evaluate and R for Review. I'm confident I can do it but I still have a few things that I'm nervous about. I've heard a lot of manager's on the floor have cried because of brat and kulit trainers who'd really give you a hard time. I feel like taking a dump and I want to go to the restroom to throw up and I want to pee every 5 minutes. I think I'm halfway thru one pack of Marlboro. I've read the material at least a hundred times and I'm still nervous. Same feeling when I had my thesis defense.. when we faced our previous CEO for a meeting.. same feeling when I was waiting for the confirmation of a closed deal. Aaarrrggghhh! I can do this! Hahahahahaha!

I'm supposed to do side-by-side evaluations today but I'll wait until I'm done with my certification. I left Coach Soc to take care of the team while I deal with my cold feet. I wonder now how the team is doing with QA Clau not around, hehehehe. Modesty aside, they call me for everything. Be it an escalation, a question or they just wanted to talk while waiting for the next call. Geez, I don't like this feeling. I wish I can pull the time so I can get this over and done with.

Tomorrow would be a day of celebration. Pau and Gen's birthday celebration and hopefully my certification.. I still have to drop by the place I heard have rooms for rent before I go to Ayala to buy my contribution to the party. I know we'll have a blast later. Earlier, me and my agents met up for some eating and shopping at SM and I brought along Ryan's sister 'coz I know she's bored as hell at their house while waiting for her papers to be processed so she can fulfill her dream of working abroad as a nurse. Too bad Ryan came too early so I had to leave them. Guys, wait for the pix.. I forgot to upload it earlier. I wasn't even able to sleep well because of this darn certification. I gotta go. I need more cigs! Wish me luck!

--> It's now 07:30am. It's over. I was certified with good feedback.Ü Me happy!

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A Jam-Packed Weekend

Weekend was jam-packed. I got off from work Saturday morning and headed directly to a grocery store, grabbed a quick breakfast and went home for shower. I went to my bestfriend's graduation party and was with his whole family all throughout the afternoon driving around the city trying my best to keep up with his energetic niece. By 2pm, I was already awake for 24 hours. We went to Bo's-SM and ordered fraps and cakes to pass the time by. We were waiting for his family to get him as they went to Ayala. We stayed there for almost 4 hours and talked for only about 20 minutes. I was so pissed off because he was busy trying to solve the stupid Rubik's cube, which by the way I got at a local store that sells educational toys.. yes, I got an original one here in the Philippines, less the shipping charge. To end the day, I walked out on him and his brother. I was tired, sleepy and was eager to get to the children's section to get a gift for my officemate's daughter. I only decided to talk to him earlier today.. we watched No Reservations. It's a boring movie so don't waste your P110.

I had a full body massage before I ended Saturday. Slept at 11pm, woke up at 9am to get ready for a children's party. It was uneventful except for the children who almost gave me nose-bleeding because of their "english-spokening" - and the food was really good. I then went to SM to wait until 7pm for my planned blowout to my team before I left PS. And since it was another boring Sunday afternoon and I was alone, I watched Apat Dapat-Dapat Apat. I did laugh at a few scenes it but I didn't like the movie.

Evening came and I met some of the people which I've grown to love even if I only got to spend a short period of time with them as I resigned a couple of months after they hit the floor. It was nice to hear them talk about troubleshooting and how they still get headaches whenever they talk to our Indian counterparts. I missed the work I had to do for 3 years. I did hear a lot of complaints about the new management and I can't help but be thankful that I'm out of there and I don't have to deal with all the bullshit that call-centers seem to have patterned. Politics, intrigues, back-biting and what-not. I didn't want to hear it but I know that those are one of the few times that they can actually pour out all their frustrations. A few sets after, one was already sleeping and most were eager to go home since they still have shifts the following morning, so we went home.

I slept at around 2am, woke up at 9am and headed to SM to meet up with Talia. We had to 'coz we missed out on our Sunday shopping. So as I've mentioned, we watched a movie and the b*tch had to leave early to watch her TL's basketball game leaving me and my bestfriend. I'd rather not talk about what happened after the movie. No sleep again and I had to be here in the office at 8:30pm for the blessing. We then had to go to our CEO's house for a lambasting. He said we slack off and what I'm doing right now is exactly what he was referring to. I'm not insensitive, I can get a hint. Gotta go now, I still have to find a way to keep myself awake. It's been 14 hours of no sleep.. and still counting..

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